Downloading Ourselves and Immortality

John Hall, a shy man with a persistent stammer, has always had trouble connecting with people. Ashamed of both his eccentricities and his nearly lifelong fascination with mortality, John mostly keeps to himself. But when he lets his caring-yet-often-critical brother convince him to open his own funeral business, he finds himself overwhelmed by the more people-centric parts of funeral planning, and soon realizes that he needs to find someone personable to work with or else risk his business perishing.

Calvin Wright, a charming con man with a tragic past and mini-library of stolen books, is struggling to survive in the city of Philadelphia without resorting to work as a laborer. Desperate for money, Calvin tricks a woman into handing over her necklace, and by selling it, brings about a series of events that leads him to becoming John Hall’s business partner.

Once John and Calvin begin working together, they easily become friends. Captivated by each other's opposing personalities, it isn't long before the two men fall in love. But John's struggles with navigating emotional intimacy cause Calvin’s insecurities to worsen, and soon, John's brother's continuous mistrust of Calvin threatens to break their still-tenuous bond. When Calvin's trauma is fully unearthed, it leads him to make a mistake that could put his and John's relationship in peril.

Ourselves and Immortality is a heartfelt MM historical romance set in 1902 that explores the importance of connection, the consequences of feeling othered, and the fragility of love.