Downloading Private Erotic Fantasies

What Kristin about to do is something she has fantasized about for a long time. A very long time. Since the first time she ever had sex. It was the first time she was fully naked in front of a lover. The feeling of being so naked and helpless to them, where her entire body is on display, and they can judge her. That started a little tiny thread in her mind which her sexuality has been tugging on ever since.
She fantasized about all this fetish for so long that she is actually paying someone to fulfill her definitive sexual fantasy. Now with the aid of some strange elixir she has found someone that can do all the things she has always wanted done because she was too scared to find a partner or friend that would do it. Then again, how would you even approach that?
She was brought up to be an independent woman with about the same sexual mores and moderately Christian beliefs as every other suburban upper middle-class white girl. She was raised to be Xena the Amazon Princess or Buffy the Vampire Slayer, so why does she have these fantasies of being a completely submissive sex toy that is used and abused by a dozen men at a time? She wants to confront another Domme like herself and see who can wrest the control from the other.