Downloading Scars and Souvenirs : Aiden and Jason Part One

Just because you’re moving, doesn’t mean you’re moving forward

Aiden:
I never imagined I’d ever leave the quiet country roads of Oklahoma for the bustling city streets of Orlando Florida, but after my last relationship left me scarred not just emotionally, but physically, I need to distance myself from the downward spiral of life as I once knew it. I’ve settled into my life as an introverted mail carrier in my three years here, but at thirty-four years old, I can’t help but long for more than a life of solitude. After a courageous night out leads me to meeting an impossibly handsome veterinarian, it feels like I’m finally claiming part of myself I wasn’t sure still existed despite my instincts to run and hide.

But no matter how far I’ve moved, and how little space I’ve made for the past in my present life, it’s still real.

And apparently I haven’t fully dealt with it.

The scars along my torso that I do my best not to look at
are only the surface of the damage done. Damage that comes back to light just when it felt safe to take a big step forward.

Can I move past the issues my last relationship engrained in me and learn not only to trust someone else, but myself again? Can I find the strength to confront the past that I tried to leave for dead years ago, and trust someone to see me for more than my broken pieces? Can I be honest about the impact of my trauma with someone else when I can hardly do so with myself most days?

And will the man I’m hopelessly falling for have the patience to stick around while I figure it all out

*This title contains two adult males who engage in explicit sexual acts, and contains references and descriptions of domestic violence