Overview

might have been trans. I checked off the boxes. If I had walked into a modern gender clinic, I could have been on hormone therapy within a week. The path to transition has many variations, but studies suggest that most share common threads with my adolescence: a poor body image, a non-traditional introduction to sex, masturbation, fantasizing, and hate or shame of genitals. And all that besides an outward expression of attributes traditionally associated with the other gender. I felt the incongruous, grinding tectonic plates of outward expression, secret behavior, and internal belief. In my story—which at times felt uniquely oppressive—I wanted to be the hero. But I was also the villain. In my vices, I seemed beyond redemption. But these things… they were just who I was… did I really want to give them up? Can I just accept myself? Might others accept me for who I am? I’ve realized my story isn’t as peculiar as it seemed at the time. Still, there are some aspects that might be helpful. I hope someone will relate and realize that feeling abnormal is normal. Feeling unique is fairly universal. And although you feel alone, you are not the first or only one to feel that way. And perhaps that realization will help you feel less alone. This book is a short autobiography on adolescence, transgenderism, and the current social environment.